I'm such an IDIOT!

Why why why am I such an idiot!
Why do i even care bout all that 'appearance' stuff?
If I ignore that, i would have most probably fulfilled my dreams today!

NO! Wait a minute...
It wasn't about my appearance really...it's more about the stuff I made yesterday..


(If you notice...there's slight wording right there tha's smudged off!)

Well... as you can see...THIS is the stuff I made yesterday!!!
(WHERE IS THE HUMONGOUS CHOCOLATE CAKE???)
I'd considered long and hard yesterday... and decided a cake might be too much of a BIG deal...
So i made Cake in a Cup instead...(THEY ARE NOT CUPCAKES!!! It's Cake in a Cup!!!)

Because they are chiffon CAKE batter...not cupcakes batter.. CLEAR ENOUGH??!!!
Anyways....made bout 20 of them... used 5 to make up the word...R A Y 2 0....

BBBBUUUUUUTTTTT... the box i put them in is quite small and could only fit 3!
So I placed the 3 cakes with the alphabet R, A and Y!!!

So then...I went upstairs...and sat on the floor to pack my stuff for tomorrow's classes ...(it was 11.40pm already)....

You noe anything about THE CURIOSITY THAT KILLED THE CAT!!! IT CAME TO ME...AT THAT EVERY MOMENT!!!

And picture this!!!
Me going up to a house... (most probably dressed up in my most favourite outfit) and under the BURNING SUNLIGHT (Cause it would be 3pm when i finish class!), I rang the doorbell....(IF HE DID COME OUT) I would flush (BIG PROBABILITY!) and hand over the 'Cake in a Cup's!!!
I imagined...I would be looking at his "SUPRISED WHY AM I GETTING 3 CUPCAKES BROUGHT OVER JUST TO WASTE PETROL FUEL...ON MY BIRTHDAY" look!!!

HOW EMBARRASSING THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN...if i did go that path...
Oh... and then i would most probably flush even more (like I'd used to back in form 2)...BIG TIME!!!

.......

So...just now I was getting curious again...

IF I HAD ACTUALLY WENT THERE!!! I could see his face again FOR THE FIRST TIME since SIX YEARS!! ....(izzit six?)
That would be a dream...and I could renew my visual impression of the last time I saw him...
I just so wanna hit myself right now for missing that!
How stupid of me to let that ONLY chance go!!

Well...my only choice now is to... just wait for another 365 days to get that chance again....
BUT BEAR IN MIND!! THIS TIME I WILL GO OUT WITH A BANG!! BECAUSE THE EVOLUTION STARTS TODAY!
AND I'm NOT going to tell you WHAT is it all about!!!

Now...take a look at my recent picture before I go...


Cause i may never look this way again...
(Sorry for the suspicious words...BUT it's nothing BIG really!)

REALLY!!!

Cya later!!!

Now that school is here... I'm depressed again!

During holidays......
Bored as hell and CAN"T WAIT FOR THE ELOPING TENSION OF SCHOOL AND ASSIGNMENTS!!! ARGH!
And... now that it's here....I'm no longer feeling the burning EXCITEMENT!
Just the steaming hot depression.......
I'm so indecisive!!!

Anyways..beside having the school blues...
Tomorrow is R's birthday....AND I'm wondering if I should bake him a cake like I had been daydreaming about....whether I should put chocolate toppings...
Anyways... just finish talking to Ruwan on Msn... and he said WHY NOT?.......
SO IT"S LIKE... and then I thought ... WHY NOT!!!!

SO IT'S DECIDED... going to bake it tonight... but....tomorrow I finish class at 2...
Have to go after that.....
...Maybe should ask some of the canteen to put it in their fridge.......OR......
I"LL BRING A COOLER IN MY CAR!!!!!!!!!
RIGHT!!!

Then try to find his house....
Hmm..... Chocolate cake.....
Wondered if that's his favourite...or maybe he'll just loathe it or something.....
Neways... gotta go prepare it now.......or else it won't be done tomorrow....

DUNNO WHETHER HE"LL HATE IT or not....
Not the cake....
Me!

Oh well... he's not that kind of person anyway....
I'll just do it...

Thinking of just leaving it on the porch or give to his maid...

Arghh... so anxious..
I think I won't be able to concentrate tomorrow at school...
Cya then!

Argh!!! Results!!!

Why Why WHY!!!
I thought I would get higher marks than the last semester...
Well, I did! Just half though..
I'd got 2 Distinctions and 2 Credits. (Better than the 4 credits last sem.)
Quite excited bout the distinction but...still have the 2 credits...Haihz..for Chemistry and Music...
Oh Well... Good enough...Just hope it is enough for the intercampus exchange...
I SOOo wanna leave this miserable place...Heh...Yeah right!!
OOOOOH..my bro wanna use comp again...HAD TO LET HIM!!!
CYA THEN!!!

Work work work...

I wasn't REALLY working ...
After the Shiseido trauma, there wasn't much to do...
Most of the orders now are given to some aunty in Desa to fold....
So I was just doing the simpler folding parts at the beginning of the process these few days... And were sorta lazing around too...

I was thinking I should not go tomorrow... just sit in car or in office...
Luckily my bro brought the laptop to the office today... BUT if he bring it there tomorrow...then if i can avoid going tomorrow... THEN I won't have the laptop tomorrow...

Oh well, i think i should start packing my bedroom anyway.. .haven't touched my stuff since the last exam...

Oh yeah... there were some pictures from the exhibition...


That's the aeroplane-structured booth at the exhibition.. selling bags


Tha's OUR BOOTH... and me looking bored










MY DESK!!... not really.. my bro kept asking me to go away..


The racks..


And below the racks...


AFTER THAT... we went for Thai food somewhere in KL........NICE!!
But kinda expensive... RM 357++ just for a few dish.. and some OVERPRICED desserts!!!


We were pigs... Finished everything!!!


My Plate...obviously!


Dad and mum


Bro and Ivy


Hm... now what??!!!
Oh yeah!!!!
Recently there were some family problems...MOSTLY between my bro and mum...
THE EVER RAGING WAR!!!
Oh... i dun wanna talk about it....
It made me tear for two whole days thinking bout it...

Now... I was also thinking of transferring to Monash in Australia NEXT YEAR NEXT YEAR!!! I WANNA WANNA!!!
I mean i need to go the earliest possible... probably because i was half afraid that they might not accept me...(because i wasn't that active or smart or possibly not eligible or because i'll be transferring on the third year which is - HARDER!!!)
Also i need two preference from my faculty!!! Who am i supposed to ask???!!!!
And I had so much questions!!! But I kept forgetting them!!! I hope i can ask Ganesh to accompany me to meet the faculty advisor at the beginning of the next semester.. then hope he had lotsa questions...THAT answers MY questions...heheh.. I CAN"T WAIT!!!
CAN"T WAIT CAN"T WAIT!!! (Drooling too)

OMG!! it's ten past twelve!!! (I'm training myself to sleep at a constant time so i would wake up at the same time too... Just hopes it works... BUT I feel my body ache so much every morning I wake up... dunno why?? I didn't even exercise!!!)

OH yeah!! I procrastinated on TJ for TWO WEEKS already... counting today!!!
I NEED TO START WORKING HARDER!!!! (Partly so that i could find clothes easier for next year... then I"LL BE GOING AUS!!!!)
YEAHHHH!!! CAN'T WAIT ..again...

Oh yeah... SLEEP...Cya then!